birthday dinner of crab

in the beginning i was five

months pregnant.  she was a large

and healthy surprise

within me.  i thought

i should probably

go to see the doctor.

but didn’t.

 

my belly swelled like a wave.

at first.  then she shifted.

sensing our ambivalence

and our intentions missing,

the fetus began to shrink.

 

shortly, people began to notice.

even a co-worker asked

what could possibly be wrong.

 

still it shrank

unfed, smaller…

finally disappearing.

 

gone.

 

when i told you,

you smiled and poured

some red wine.

 

Published: Off the Coast